#thanks ise!!

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7 (What is your favorite scene you’ve written so far?), 8 (What is the last scene you’ve written?), and 12 (What emotions do you expect your readers to feel?), please :O?? -ise

7. I am cheating again! (I have some of this fic planned, not the Most written but I like playinggggg) uh a really lovely scene I think is just going to involve recreational firework usage >:3

8. I am actually in the middle of writing taako (and also Kravitz) planning this fucking wild roadtrip at the laundromat <3

12. oooh fucking joy and delight, of course, and also that like. stomach droppy feeling when you remember how big the world is compared to you but like. the hopeful version

[iwilltranscend]

I was tagged by @barry-j-blupjeans to shuffle a playlist of mine and post the first ten songs! this playlist is titled grab bag and it is exactly what it sounds like

Rules: You can usually tell a lot about a person by the type of music they listen to. Put your playlist on shuffle and list the first 10 songs, and then tag 10 people. No skipping!

XS by Rina Sawayama

Comme Des Garcons (Like The Boys) by Rina Sawayama

Boys Boys Boys by Lady Gaga

I/Me/Myself by Will Wood

JUDAS by The Reverent Marigold

Closing Time by Semisonic

Surfin' U.S.A. by The Beach Boys

Do Wah Diddy Diddy by Manfred Mann

Plastic Doll by Lady Gaga

I Want It That Way by the Backstreet Boys

yeah this all kinda tracks lskdfjlsd anyway if you see this and you want to do it, then I'm tagging you!!

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🎀, 🎈, 🤲, and 💌 please :O?? -ise

🎀give yourself a compliment about your own writing

oh again ahhh okay i think i'm quite good at just committing to a bit and letting a story go where it needs to!

🎈describe your style as a writer; is it fixed? does it change?

hm this one is tough because like, i think that i'm sometimes just a half-crazed writer and other times it is like pulling teeth because if it isn't perfect then what is the point??? so i suppose i'm a fairly not-fixed writer !

🤲what do YOU get out of writing?

it's so nice to see just the sheer breadth of work that i'm able to create sometimes. and like, sometimes when i feel bad about myself and think i can't do anything, i can look back at my writing tag for proof of existence and creation which is pretty cool

💌share something with us about an up-and-coming work (WIP) that has you excited!

ooooh okay so i have a few projects i'm fiddling with in various stages. I'm very excited to get into the worldbuilding of the roadtrip resurrection piece that I'm continuing, I just have big ideas for this Kravitz as a phone psychic thing, but I'm actively working on my little two parter community theatre au that I'll share a lil snippet of !

It’s silly, he has no earthly reason to be nervous; it’s community theatre, for Chrissake. But it’s community theatre in a new town and he’s not sure if they’re a -re group or an -er group and that’s a lot to try and casually seek an answer for. Ultimately, it doesn’t matter but all the people in his undergraduate program were ungodly pretentious about it even though they were just a step above programs that would make their way into a YouTube compilation with the title “Theatre moments that make me want to say Macbeth at the Wintergarden Theatre” or some shit like that. Hypothetically, of course  Kravitz absolutely never made a compilation like that in a pettier moment when he was nineteen. You can’t connect that YouTube account to him anyway, you narc.

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5 and 15 for the writers wrapped :O? -ise

15 What WIP are you taking into next year with you?

oh it's rhapaw we all know this! but also I wanna actually get cranking on the community theatre stuff, I'm working on some pieces with Hali, working on something with Larissa, and i might actually try to tackle the resurrection road trip piece if I can actually do some worldbuilding !!

5 What work of yours got more feedback than you expected?

oh god both Live Like This and it's my party and I'll mope if I want to because like, I loved those personally but I wasn't sure if anyone else would agree!!

like especially it's my party because I wasn't sure that my thinly veiled projection of birthday weirdness on taako would be everyone's cup of tea but the reception was so sweet

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for the writer asks: 4 (what fic of your own do you read for comfort?), 8 (does anyone in your personal life know you write fic? if not, would you tell anyone?), and 10 (how has writing positively impacted your mental health or overall mood?) :O??? -ise

[questions here!]

(what fic of your own do you read for comfort?)

ooooh boy i reread old ficlets of mine just in general but for my Proper Fics I'd have to say starblaster lanes, The Only One On Your A.M. Radio, and Say it with Flours

(does anyone in your personal life know you write fic? if not, would you tell anyone?)

my absolute best friend hali not only knows but writes fic and also sometimes we collab on fics and just create the most elaborate shared universes (we're up to like. four or five or six? and these will probably maybe never see anywhere but our own minds!)

also another pal (and DM) does know (especially because we both used to write s/pn and glee fanfic and send it to each other slkdfjsldf)

and also i do have another friend who i think i have joked about writing fic to but he doesn't like. Know.

also my partner because sometimes i do forget they followed this blog before we started dating slkdfjlsdf

(how has writing positively impacted your mental health or overall mood?)

it's helped me make some really nice friends :3 and also just clear cobwebs out of my brain by doing creative stuff

[iwilltranscend]

for the playlist thing: issac :3 (since that will get more more songs that just "ise" slkdfjsdf) -ise

:D

(and also a bonus e just for flavor sndbdjsj)

[iwilltranscend]

∞!! -ise

the song was Refresh by Dave Malloy!

even though you don't fucking know me at all

no you've no fucking idea what you are talking about

but i am yelling at a stranger

and a mindwaste

at a petty child robot

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for the meta asks: 5 (What character that you’re writing do you most identify with?) and 17 (Do you think readers perceive your work - or you - differently to you? What do you think would surprise your readers about your writing or your motivations?) :O?? -ise

5. What character that you’re writing do you most identify with?

oh like in general? it is always gonna be Taako sdkjfhsd uh if we're talking specifically about a version of a character in a current wip, im actually going to say Johann in rhapaw! this is likely to change but. he's just such a guy and i love him <3 and also he goes on a long rant about horses so.

17. Do you think readers perceive your work - or you - differently to you? What do you think would surprise your readers about your writing or your motivations?

ooh man this one is hard!! because like. im not really sure what kind of vibe my writing gives off, you know? I mean i think y'all tend to like my writing more than i do (in most cases) and hmm. i don't know if this would surprise anyone but i really only started writing in...June of 2021? like i had written two ficlets for s/pn way back when i was like. fourteen? so idk, i guess it might surprise you all how much i personally think i've grown? and my motivations are usually just to write something i want to read.

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42 ("You live to annoy me, don't you?") w davenport and anyone :O?? -ise

from this prompt list! still accepting!

This cycle’s been rough on everyone. It started with a bang. Davenport deftly flew them into the storm-riddled plane, dodging lightning and keeping the Starblaster steady amidst gale force winds.

All was calm for a few weeks after that. Relatively speaking. The weather on the plane is nothing but a collage of extremes: torrential downpours followed by blistering days nearly too hot for the humans on the crew to handle followed by subzero temperatures that nearly render the twins catatonic.

But the first trek out trying to find the Light turned south quickly. Lup, Davenport, and Merle got roughed up by some of the strange creatures on the plane.

The creatures are these huge, hulking reptiles and these insects that are too big for anyone’s preference. None of them seem vulnerable to evocation so Lup’s not raring to get back out there. But the search for the Light has to continue.

Lup, Davenport, and Merle are too roughed up to go but they’re able to explain the finer points of how these creatures attack. Armed with this knowledge, a small team is prepared.

Magnus, Barry, and Taako all decide to go out in their stead.

Only Magnus returns, stumbling onto the ship looking haunted.

It takes a day or two to even get what happened out of him. At some point during Magnus’s recounting of a gnarly looking spider cornering Barry and Taako, the pair of them doing their best to provide cover, to distract the arachnid, to give him a shot at getting back to the ship, Lup rushes off to her room.

She doesn’t leave it for a few days. Even when she does, it’s like seeing a ghost. She moves in silence, barely looks at anyone. She’s never reacted well during cycles where Barry dies.

This is the first time Taako’s gone without Lup.

Trouble is, it’s so early in the cycle. You’d think time can cure all wounds, especially ones that are going to heal themselves in a year. But this is not all wounds.

Weeks and months pass and the situation remains roughly the same. Merle, Magnus, and Lucretia all do their best to cheer her up, engage her in some way, but everything falls flat.

Davenport’s got a different idea.

A month after the botched mission, he raps on her door at the crack of dawn.

When he gets no response, he knocks again. And again. And again.

Eventually Lup eases the door open, looking exhausted. “What?” she asks hollowly.

“Need your help, get dressed and meet me on deck in five.” He turns on his heel and disappears back down the hall before he can hear Lup’s protests.

--

“What do you need my help with, Captain?” Lup asks tiredly. The sun is barely clawing its way over the horizon, though the air of the morning is already hot and still.

“The deck’s looking a little worse for wear, yeah?” And it’s true, it is. Bits of rust tease the furthest corners of the ship. Some screws stick up just far enough to act as a trip hazard. So many parts of the railing are loose.

“Yeah, I guess.”

Davenport walks over to the chest near the steering column. “We’re gonna give this old girl some TLC today!” He announces brightly, popping open the chest and rifling around for tools.

“Cap, I really don’t feel like it,” Lup’s voice is hollow and she sends him a look of dread.

“Well, sometimes we gotta do stuff we really don’t feel like doing, Lup. Grab a screwdriver and let’s get to work.”

--

Two weeks after that, Davenport recruits her to help reorganize the storage rooms on the ship.

Another week after that, he ropes her into helping him clean out the fridge and pantry.

It’s about three months after the botched mission when Davenport once again comes to knock on Lup’s door. She yanks it open after the first knock and glares at him. “You live to annoy me, don’t you? What could you possibly need my help with today? Have any buttons that need sewing back on? W-why the fuck is it always me? Huh? Don’t see you banging down Magnus’s door to help with inane bullshit. So what’s the deal, Cap?” she snaps.

Davenport looks unperturbed. In fact, Lup almost swears she sees a hint of a smile. “Come on up to the kitchen. Please.” And like every other time he’s don’t this, he turns on his heel and disappears down the hallway.

Huh. Not the reaction Lup was expecting. But her point still stands. It’s bullshit that nobody else has had Dav breathing down their neck this fucking cycle, she thinks to herself as she slips on a sweatshirt.

Davenport’s sitting at the kitchen table when Lup makes her way up, idly shuffling a deck of cards. He gestures to the empty seat in front of him and begins quickly dealing cards in two face-down piles.

She sighs as she sits down. “Cap, listen, I’m sorry for losing my temper but I’m still pissed, okay? I think you’re asking an awful lot of me this cycle and only of me.”

He glances up at her before looking back at his hands. “So this game’s best with more than two people but nobody else on the ship knows it. I think you’ll be good at it though.” His voice is even and steady compared to the rapid-fire snap-snap-snap of the cards hitting their respective piles. He empties his hand and straightens out both piles.

She furrows her brows at him. Not like him to completely disregard an apology, even if he doesn’t accept.

“Rules are simple enough. Cards stay face down, you draw from the top. Game’s all about speed. We each lay down a card in rapid succession. If two of the same cards get laid down on top of each other, you slap it. Whoever slaps first gets the cards. You’re trying to get them all. That rule also applies if a single different card is between the double. So two, king of hearts, two. That’s a sandwich and you can slap it. But face cards have their own rules,” He slides a piece of paper to Lup. “I wrote down each of their rules. We can start slow, the best way to practice is to just play.”

She looks at him again. “You needed me to play a game?”

He shrugs. “I’m feeling a little lonely this cycle. Figure this could help me take my mind off it.”

Ah. That’s it, isn’t it?

Lup swallows and nods. “Uh yeah. Yeah, that’s a good idea, huh?” She picks up her deck and holds them in her hands, looking at Davenport for guidance.

He draws a card from the top of his deck. “So I just laid down a queen. You put two cards on top of her. Either you lay down a face card or I get all three cards,” he explains.

Lup quickly snaps two cards down and smacks the pile. “Was that right? Uh I laid down a seven and then another queen.”

Davenport grins. “That’s exactly right!” He nudges the pile toward Lup. “Go ahead and put those at the bottom of your stack. And then you lay the next card down.”

Lup obliges, laying down a three.

“You know, Lup, I think you’re gonna give me a run for my money.”

“That’s always the plan, Cap.”

They play for hours and at some point, Lup laughs for the first time in months. If nothing else, Davenport feels like this cycle’s had one success.

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tagged by @barry-j-blupjeans to post 10 pictures from my camera roll that describe me!

[Image ID: ten images

1) a white text box that says "fruity homicide"

2) image of Yakko Warner from the 2019 Animaniacs reboot, wearing a bathrobe and looking at a tablet. His face is is tired

3) an orange sign on a public bathroom door. various names are written on it, the focal point of the image says "Thelma & Louise 5/9/19 4 Life"

4) image of two Rottweiler puppies, both with a thought bubble reading "Kill!" drawn above them

5) Image of spongebob squarepants with his edges rounded out, no holes on his body, and a toothy smile.

6) screenshot of a discord conversation. user kirst (she/her) says "are we...?" user RemiBoi (he/him) replies "Gay? Most if not all."

7) an image of a sunset with a person standing on top of a rocky outcropping. The overlaid text says "Everyday I run up my silly little hill and make my silly little deal with god"

8) image of an arcade cabinet of the game Krull. on the display is an orange sign with a cartoon of an arcade cabinet with a face, an ice pack, and a thermometer sticking out of its mouth. The surrounding text says "Out of order. Check back with me tomorrow"

9) Impact font meme of Jimmy Pesto Jr. from Bob's Burgers dancing with headphones in. The top line of text reads "Thanks Bestie." The bottom line of text reads "Bottom Text."

10) a vintage slot machine style game adorned with images of various fruits, a bell, and a guide for scoring. Large red text in the middle reads "All fruit"

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okay i'm tagging @tentatively-positive-3 @kettlecliff @evildilf2 and @lesbianavocado (if any of y'all want to!) and uhhh anyone else who wants to !